Three Poems by Zachary Pace
This week in the PEN Poetry Series, PEN America features three poems by Zachary Pace.
from Gender Studies
Thousands of trees—each an individual (also belonging
to a genus, family, order, class, division, kingdom)—
surrounded you & me earlier today as we discussed
the insidious, invasive nature of heteronormativity,
swearing we’d never stop exploring newer manners
of loving—caretaking, homemaking—us both free from
the biological, egomaniacal procreation compulsion.
Then, I should’ve confessed, I’d like to be responsible
for you, your happiness, safety, but I couldn’t say it—
given the chance to confirm, dispel, or prolong fantasy
I’ll always delay & delay, because desire often leads us
to flee what we seek—(although I think you would’ve
reciprocated) . . . at the end of the day, I feel I am
—I know I’m not—the first person to feel this way.
from Gender Studies
The two of us fucking tonight
as I envision somebody else
—bedside, underwear, unwashed
cups, Sunday’s New York Times,
twelve leaves on one houseplant,
Roman numerals circling a clock—
the fantasy of control over chaos
a luxury of having too much choice.
Once, I was an outcast, who’d later
find kindred personalities, forming
a kind of tribe, and so developed
an identity defined by romance . . .
now coupled, this single presence
enhances every other’s absence.
from Gender Studies
Nobody necessarily needs sex and yet
many people seek it daily
while some forgo intercourse
with certain others, or altogether
(its proximity to the abject perhaps
too traumatic to ignore)
these bodies—same ones
at the end as at the start
—you & I will inhabit awhile
(you like the mountains
I like the open ocean)
but we’ll forget a lot—plot upon plot—
in order to be, to be changed. All life
death intrudes, all life is is an interlude.
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